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It rained. Many people hated rain but Gilbert loved it. The raindrops which soaked his clothes and made them cling on his pale skin, the with gray clouds covered sky, the smell of the fresh fallen drops from above.

It made him feel safe, safe and sound.

The albino stood alone outside - the ground under him was muddy and his feet sunk into the dark brown wet dirt - and let the bittersweet water soaking his white shirt. He felt like crying but he refused to. To many times he had cried himself into his so desired sleep only to be hunted from memories, memories which turned into nightmares, showed him the dark side of his whole life.
He hated it to cry, it was unawesome and showed that he was weak.

Gilbert wasn't weak, Gilbert was just broken.

Something he tried to hide from the others, tried to hide from himself.
A simple grin here, a little smirk there, laughing his very unique laugh, saying that he's awesome onces or twice a day and everyone thought he was okay, being is usually egocentric and narcissistic self.

He wasn't okay, he was in pain.

The Prussian would never admit it but he felt useless, lonely and thought he stood others in their way. "Am I really... such a waste of time?", he asked himself and shut his red eyes tightly to get the images out of his head.

Being alone.
Pushed away.
Left behind.

No one had time for him, they left him behind. He stood in their shadows, their big and dark shadows, faced their back to him and let him suffer in the dark.
This is how he felt.


Touching his left cheek with his roughen fingertips he noticed that he had started to cry again. Gilbert felt numb like a marionette, felt empty while living through the day, time floated by like a leaf in a fast river, no chance to be caught- but he didn't care.

He was dead from the inside.

"Sometimes...", he started whispering and reopened his eyes slightly, showing his red, from the tears glittering eyes and starred at the palm from his now madly shaking pale hand.
"I-I wish that I... would have j-just disappeared along with my nation... Just... to be dead...."
His voice cracked as his sobs, which he didn't even notice before, were getting louder, ringing trough the lonely and dark night.
Titling his head back he faced the gray sky with closed eyes and let the heavy rain pour down on his face along with his salty tears.
A small pathetic chuckle escaped his throat as a bitter and shaky grin spread on his face, trying to cover his sorrow as he laid the back from his hand on his forehead to cover his eyes slightly.

His grin disappeared, the facade was now fully torn down.

There he stood, a broken man, who forced himself to smile everyday and put on a lie, wearing a mask, trying to hide his pain.

                      Looks like...
                  I'm not so awesome after all, huh?
Contest entry for :icondrawing-circles:'s contest~ you don't say

First off all: I've uploaded this before BUT it was for this contest. I deleted it after realising that there is a timeframe where I'm only aloud to submit it.
I hope there's no problem with that.

Ohmaigawd, I did it! :icononionx3plz: Actually, I wanted to wait a little bit before I submit it. Meh.
A written thingy without a pairing and it's not a Reader-Insert xD
I hope there are enough feels for y'all, I kinda do like it though.
I feel so out of place, everyone submits drawn pieces... I don't have a chance against them :iconprussiasulkplz:
At least I saw someone who wrote something too! xD

Meh. I know, it's quite short.
But it's still bootyful!
Well, I hope it's bootyful xDD

Anyway, I'm talking way too much.

I hope y'all like it :iconmoesmileplz:

but it's okay if you don't xD
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brutallyawesome108 Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2014
This remindes me of myself i always hide my emotions from others and i dont like crying ether cause i feel weak

Great story by the way
KatelinLikesFeenie Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
You're not the only one, I'm doing this too c:

And thank you very much ♡
brutallyawesome108 Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2014
Hehehe thanks nice to know im not the only one
KatelinLikesFeenie Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Of course you aren't!
There are so many people, who are doing this! c:
brutallyawesome108 Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2014
Really??! I thought i was the only one
InsaneKuroUsa-chan Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2013  Student Artist
Holy flying mint bunnies ;A;
This is amazing, the feels it gives me. So sad, Prussia-boo, let me give you a hug ;-;

Love it, you're an amazing writer! It had my full attention n_n
KatelinLikesFeenie Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Aww~ IKR?
Poor, Pru Pru, so lonely and stuff like that D:

And thank you very much, I'm glad to hear that *^*
InsaneKuroUsa-chan Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013  Student Artist
Aye, that was one heck of a feels attack right there.

It's no problemo~ 83
KatelinLikesFeenie Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
That's my job.
Bringin' da feels to da people :iconreactionzoomplz:
InsaneKuroUsa-chan Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013  Student Artist
Let meh hug you for having an epic job...even though it hurts my feels but that doesn't matter~ *^*
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